You call this paralysis, but I call it the heaviness of survival.
To watch a loved one fade while you grow is the only exile that truly matters.
You apologize for your breath as if your lungs have stolen air from theirs. But listen, the guilt you feel is not a verdict. It is the sound of a door you walked through that they could not open.
Do not ask the night to swallow you, and do not silence your own heart.
The dead do not need us to die with them in the bunk bed.
They need us to wake up and live loudly enough that they are never forgotten.
oh ayat this was such a painful read, you have put it together so beautifully - it's haunting, dark and full of emotion. this piece really did make my heart heavy, this piece almost sang the language of sleep paralysis itself in its darkness and grief. i don't have much words, you never fail to amaze me with your writing... i hope your heart finds comfort soon, you deserve the world my friend xx
you are such a remarkable writer ayat. Absolute chills. I hope you know how much i look up to your writing, you painted such a painful picture with such gentleness ,I hope this feeling that overwhelms you eases. Grief is proof of love remember that
As devastating as it is, I’m glad this resonated with you. I do feel less alone in this feeling now. I appreciate you reading my work, thank you for the kind words ☹️💗
You call this paralysis, but I call it the heaviness of survival.
To watch a loved one fade while you grow is the only exile that truly matters.
You apologize for your breath as if your lungs have stolen air from theirs. But listen, the guilt you feel is not a verdict. It is the sound of a door you walked through that they could not open.
Do not ask the night to swallow you, and do not silence your own heart.
The dead do not need us to die with them in the bunk bed.
They need us to wake up and live loudly enough that they are never forgotten.
Thank you for the kind words Abdullah 💗💗
Absolute masterful writing. I’m in awe. Wow. I’ll be there for the next one
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oh ayat this was such a painful read, you have put it together so beautifully - it's haunting, dark and full of emotion. this piece really did make my heart heavy, this piece almost sang the language of sleep paralysis itself in its darkness and grief. i don't have much words, you never fail to amaze me with your writing... i hope your heart finds comfort soon, you deserve the world my friend xx
Thankyou so much alif i appreciate you friend 💗💗
you are such a remarkable writer ayat. Absolute chills. I hope you know how much i look up to your writing, you painted such a painful picture with such gentleness ,I hope this feeling that overwhelms you eases. Grief is proof of love remember that
I love you sienna, thank you for being there for me always :( 💗
Of course brother don’t mention it *inserts happi cat*
I genuinely cannot describe how adequately you put together the words to describe this feeling i have never been able to explain. Thank you
Thank you for reading my work layla :( 💗
Writing so good the words literally distilled into vision,This was so grotesque "beauty in the decay" read, i loved it so much.
Thank you paro ily im glad you liked it 💗💗💗
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how can sleep paralysis ever be so poetic ayat I LOVE THIS OMG <333
Thanks sarah !! I appreciate u friend 💗
Oh my god, I don't even have words. I feel a little attacked maybe because I was once in this situation. But I'm grateful for this.
Thank you for reading my work ! As sad as it is, i hope this made you feel less alone ☹️💗
Yeah it did. It made me feel someone saw
thank you for this
Thank you for reading aiden 💗
WOW
reading this at 3 am is boderline self harm, wanted to marvel at the writing but crumbled under the image it drew. hauntingly beautiful.
Yea no i apologise for what i have caused 😭😭
Thank u rishabh means a lot to me, I can’t wait for your next banger💗💗
this feels like a stab to heart
I love ur heart i’d never stab it
this was so so wonderful ayat, you’re a marvel
Thank u sweet aarna ☹️💗💗💗
The WORST kind ..... 💝
As devastating as it is, I’m glad this resonated with you. I do feel less alone in this feeling now. I appreciate you reading my work, thank you for the kind words ☹️💗